Just Keep Walking

I can still hear it
My own voice
Off the mountains
Like it belongs to something else now
That wasn't a scream
That was everything
Leaving
At once

You should have let her hit me
You stupid
Stubborn
It was mine
It was always mine to survive
And you
You just
And now there's just this hole
With your shape still warm on the edges
And I keep putting my hand in it
I can't stop
I can't
What the hell is wrong with me

I'm so goddamn tired
Of being the one who walks away
So tired of my own hands
Knowing how to keep moving
When nothing
When nothing
She's cold
And I'm carrying her anyway
Because I don't know
What else to do with myself
So I walk
And I walk
And I walk

Mirael
Christ
All those years
And I let her carry it
Because it was easier
Not to see it
And I put the daggers in
Before I knew
I felt every year of it
After

They braided her hair
Every strand exactly right
They knew
They knew exactly
FUCK!

She never shut up
Not once
Not for anything
I'm so sorry baby
I'm so sorry